Saturday, April 10, 2010

long ways to go


Sometimes you really think that you have things figured out...which happens right before you realize that you have a long ways to go. I've discovered that like a funnel, the more you discover, the more you discover that their is more to discover (I just used the word discover 4 times in one sentence).
Further still is the fact that you can be cruising along thinking you have it all figured out and then something small trips you up such as the fact that I have been running for a couple months now and feel undestructible as I can run faster and faster for longer periods of time...until I formed a small blister that is forcing me to slow down. (Or when a small 10 pound baby can bring you to your knees trying to figure out how to make him stop crying).
Rich Mullins said it best when he sang:
"We are frail
We are fearfully and wonderfully made
Forged in the fires of human passion
Choking and the fumes of selfish rage
And with these are hells and our heaves
So few inches apart
We must be awfully small
And not as strong as we think we are"

I think about this as I start to wrap up my 3rd year of residency I find myself getting emails and phone calls from recruitment agencies telling me how great I would be for their particular spot. Kind of makes me feel good as all of this education and money is now going to pay off right? The "American Dream" is now just around the corner and I am about to arrive. (Speaking of the American Dream I love what Jon Foreman's thoughts on the American Dream as he stated "When success is equated with excess, the ambition for excess wrecks us.")
Reminds me of the same feeling I had when I was getting ready to graduate from high school, college, and med school...which was soon ended by the thought that I was getting ready to start college, med school, and residency.
But maybe this is the key, realizing that all you need to do is take one step at a time day by day with the confidence that you are progressing, but with the humility that you will always have a long ways to go and the faith that God wastes nothing.

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