time

It seems like every stage in my life since middle school I always felt like I never had enough time to do whatever I felt was important. Frequent comments and reactions that I had were something to the fact that "one day I would like to..." or "I am just so busy right now that I can't..." In some sort of delusional state I figured that "tomorrow" things will get less busy.
But now that I am a dad I am amazed at how much time I actually did have all of those years as the "simple" act of going out to eat is now a 14-step process (which is all worth it when Titus gives you one of his smiles that makes you feel like there is nothing wrong in the world.)But still, I am learning that I will never reach this "magical time" in which I will have an abundance of free time until I am old enough that I can't remember what I am doing anyways. So where does this leave me?
Priorities.
Simple enough, my priorities.What I really want to do or have to do I find time for. Obviously work takes a majority of my time, but what about God time? I say that Jesus is my number one priority, but if someone had a listing of my daily activities or my credit card statement could they tell He is my all in all?
Obviously faith plays a large role that I realize that God is truly in control and that I am not the captain of my ship I will have the peace to put my work down and rest in His promises, but also is He enough? Is He my greatest joy? Do I feel fulfilled in His Word and in prayer? If the answer is yes wouldn't it follow that I would not feel pushed for time to spend with Jesus and when life does get busy the obvious answer is to cut other things out of my life? Makes sense on paper (or on a blog), but in real life I guess I so easily become blinded and drift away until He does something to bring me back that usually hurts.
All of the sudden the patter of the Bible of judgment and mercy starts to ring true as I read how God works with His people with judgment followed by mercy. Our holy and righteous God sends judgment on sinful people. But God is also merciful, patient, and compassionate and thus rescues the sinful people from his judgment.
Over and over and over and over again. Just read the OT and you will soon see the pattern.
The humbling part is when you look back on your own life and realize the same pattern, which leads me to a deeper understand of His love.
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